“Today I braved multiple terrifying surgeries. The most important of which being the surgery that would hopefully treat my endometriosis. For those of you who have followed this battle of mine or who may suffer with it yourself, you know the extremes to which it can be mentally exhausting and physically painful.”

In a moving photograph of herself on Instagram, Halsey, whose birth name is Ashley Nicolette Frangipane, was wearing a green patient gown, with a blue hair top. She addressed the torment she was feeling post-surgery, composing, I’m in total agony right now… (and I’m going to be in excruciating pain for a while cause I had quite the cocktail of procedures today)”, before digging into the affection and quality she gets from her fans.

“In my recovery I am thinking of all of you and how you give me the strength and stamina to power through and prosper,” she writes. “If you suffer from chronic pain or a debilitating disease please know that I have found time to live a crazy, wild, rewarding life AND balance my treatment and I hope so much in my heart that you can too.”

The “Gas” vocalist has encountered a ton issues in the most recent two years. In July, she told Rolling Stone in a noteworthy meeting that she endured a miscarriage while touring in 2015. The singer recalled that space of time, “What happens? Do I lose my record deal? Do I lose everything? Or do I keep? What are the fans going to think? What are the moms going to think? What is the Midwest going to think? What’s f***ing everyone going to think?”

Her unsuccessful labor happened hours before she went in front of an audience. Halsey still found the will to work through it by wearing grown-up diapers and taking two Percocet.

“I think that the reason it happened is just the lifestyle I was living. I wasn’t drinking. I wasn’t doing drugs. I was f***ing overworked. In the hospital every couple of weeks because I was dehydrated, needing bags of IVs brought to my greenroom. I was anemic, I was fainting. My body just broke the f— down”, said Halsey as she blamed herself.